Grazie, Gracias, Grace

Steve,

I thank you for these three recent posts. I have fallen into a stretch in CPE where I have trouble discerning where God is in all this. I think that my own confusion about where God is for me in my recent experiences is perhaps because my patients also wonder where God is, and probably don't even know how to ask, or don't even know that they may be in spiritual confusion, or despair. So, as I recognize my own confusion, I pray that God will indeed make himself known to me in those smal moments that are holy - in the small blessings I say for people as I enter and exit a room, in the prayers I offer over the list of patients that I look over at the start of the day, and in the pounding-heartbeat moments that accompany my "code" beeper going off before I move with haste to see if the staff will be able to usher someone back to life. God is. God is, of course in all these moments, and God's grace is present through all of these struggles; even my own with my impatience, and eagerness to be done with CPE. I am thankful - in Spanish: Gracias, in Italian: Grazie...but I know that even in this thankfulness is God's grace.

I appreciate these recent posts, brother, as I pray to know Christ and make him known as I visit patients, and as I wander the halls sometimes without a clear purpose; I pray that Jesus is with me, as I know he is.

Peace, Have a good week.

Peter C.